Yes, I am unemployed.

Confession: i got layed off. Yeah talk about hittin ya with a good confession. That makes up for all the crappy blogs i wrote the past few times. I found out hmmm almost 1hr and 45 mins ago. So i thought best to document this while its fresh. I wondered what its like to lose your job. It sucks. the instability the unknown future. Now i am not sad per say about working at Kodak. If i am honest, i am more than ready to go. And as i told mom, God is so faithful. I was ready to leave Kodak but He knows me so well, I wouldnt have left on my own. It would have taken hmmm a layoff ;) to move me into something new. He knows what i need and i fully am ready for a different company a more energetic company, a company with young people!! lol. So what did it feel like? Shock. I went into my bosses office before going to my desk because i had been out sick yesterday and wasnt sure how he was going to notify people so i went there first. Thank God. I couldnt have imagined having to go to my desk after that. But my boss made small talk and then i saw him reach for the manilla envelope and i knew. He was very kind and made a point of letting me know it was NOT a reflection of my work, but only of the fact that i had such few years here compared to the seniority that everone else had. I think we all knew, it was only a matter of time. And then came the tears. You just can't help it.I just kept thinking of being employeed and working for a full year and few months and now im gone. I interned, I suffered through the crap projects, i hung out and made friends. I can't help but think, "i wonder what they are thinking?" "How bad do they feel?" I know my boss felt bad, i thought he was gonna cry when i started crying. But i am optimistic (or atleast keep forcing myself to feel that way) about geting something new. I have my resume all set up and am ready to leave that stupid Kodak (:P) before they go bottoms up, which i am sure they will. So for those who read this, there are a few things i ask of you... 1. Prayer: for me, for me and alfie, for my job hunt. and 2. to keep your eyes and ears open for job possibilities. I am in Finance so anything related works for me :) Thanks guys. I am ok, and i am sure i will continue to be that way, it just currently sucks :P