Confession: I am a crier. Most people are probably pretty surprised to know that I cry at the drop of a hat! just the other day I cried at Celebrity Rehab, and Mtv's Made (dude this really fat kid finished a triathalon...come on!!). I almost cried reading someones blog about their dad and the blessed friendship of a coworker. I cry at songs that remind me of people. I often get choked up at church when reminded of God's awesomeness or his faithfulness in my life (just now totally got choked up..lol) I cry reading books. I will cry with, for, or over someone. I hate people crying alone so there is a 90% chance that if I see someone crying I will cry. Maybe God has blessed me with empathy or maybe I just have a sensitive heart, but goodness you catch me around "that time of the month" and holy crap its just comical! I will admit though that it is very theraputic. Nothing makes you feel better when you are stressed or upset or sad like a good cry. As I was sitting here thinking about this I was reminded about a video that touches me so much that I can't help but cry too and makes me so thankful for the life I have and the love my both my heavenly Father and earthly father...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zFVGdZOhlL0
Monday, December 22, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Totally makes me laugh!!
For those who are not easily offended.... enjoy! Alfie and I watched this SNL video like 4 times yesterday and each time was just as funny as the first! The SNL Digital Short is called "Jizzed in my pants"
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
What I would have changed...
This post was inspired by my good friend Emily. Her wedding date of Dec 17th is quickly approaching and in that she gave a critical eye to her wedding day and thought of what she would do differently in the planning. Now little did she know that all the things she posted would not have made one bit of difference to us who attended... it was still a beautiful day and ran very smoothly! So reading her blog made me think of my recent nuptuals and what I would have done differently or what recommendations I would offer brides...by the way, my day went pretty much perfect, there is little I felt needed to change but via things I heard and a tough eye, Ill break it down for ya! lol Here we go....
1. Different bridesmaids dresses. I would have gone strapless. Generally bridesmaids dresses are a direct reflection of the bride and if ANYONE had to pick something that screamed "Kimi" i doubt it would have been that. Long story short, I would have gone with a strapless dress or a vneck one. While the dress did fit well with the wedding, that remains my top "thing I would have changed"
2. I would have had a shorter ceremony. I think ours was about 30 -40 mins, which wasn't bad considering we had 2 song performances but my cousin just got married and it was like BANG 15 mins and it was over, but still very pretty.
3. I would have started projects earlier. towards the wedding date I wanted to keep adding little bits to the day but I just did not have time to complete them (ie individual table questions with info about alfie and i; table numbers;ceremony decor)
4. I wouldn't have ordered a dress up a size. I fully intended to lose weight, it was a goal, but stupid me ordered a size up instead of the size that fit snuggly in order to accommadate my boobs. dumb move. the dress ended up being 3 sizes too big and still about a size too big when they took it in. (but i would still pick that dress, it was so pretty)
5. I should have tried to make the individual wedding cakes work within our budget. I wanted instead of cupcakes, small personal cakes (like 3 bites would have finished it). it would have been so cute, but at first glance was too pricey, i didn't try to make it work and I should have.
6. Gotten a food tasting. We thought our beef was going to be like steak but it was more like a pot roast. still tasty but not as expected.
7. Loretta. enough said. (for those who don't know she was the Bethel assigned wedding host and did a TERRIBLE job at the rehearsal. I wanted things to flow a certain way and she was not about that. oye.)
Now to gush about what I LOVED:
1. My photographers. They were more than I expected to get. I will never forget sitting at Rachels house looking through the pics to pick the ones to go in our coffee table book and being amazed that those were MY wedding pictures. Her and Bethany made it veryyyy easy and fun to be in front of the camera. Especially for someone who doesn't enjoy being in pictures.
2. The Marriott. They were super! They were willing to help me get everything I wanted. I never thought I would ever be able to afford chair covers but they let me use that cost to meet the minimum $ amount for a Sat reception even though it was supposed to be used on food. They were attentive and quick and our steak and scallops were delicious.
3. My aisle runner. I am quite impressed I was able to make something that looked purchased (until you got up reallllll close to it.lol)
4. The groom :)
5. Everything else! lol I can't go ahead and list everything I loved but the whole day was like a dream except I remember it all! It went so smoothly (with the exception of the crazy BANG noise during the ceremony).
1. Different bridesmaids dresses. I would have gone strapless. Generally bridesmaids dresses are a direct reflection of the bride and if ANYONE had to pick something that screamed "Kimi" i doubt it would have been that. Long story short, I would have gone with a strapless dress or a vneck one. While the dress did fit well with the wedding, that remains my top "thing I would have changed"
2. I would have had a shorter ceremony. I think ours was about 30 -40 mins, which wasn't bad considering we had 2 song performances but my cousin just got married and it was like BANG 15 mins and it was over, but still very pretty.
3. I would have started projects earlier. towards the wedding date I wanted to keep adding little bits to the day but I just did not have time to complete them (ie individual table questions with info about alfie and i; table numbers;ceremony decor)
4. I wouldn't have ordered a dress up a size. I fully intended to lose weight, it was a goal, but stupid me ordered a size up instead of the size that fit snuggly in order to accommadate my boobs. dumb move. the dress ended up being 3 sizes too big and still about a size too big when they took it in. (but i would still pick that dress, it was so pretty)
5. I should have tried to make the individual wedding cakes work within our budget. I wanted instead of cupcakes, small personal cakes (like 3 bites would have finished it). it would have been so cute, but at first glance was too pricey, i didn't try to make it work and I should have.
6. Gotten a food tasting. We thought our beef was going to be like steak but it was more like a pot roast. still tasty but not as expected.
7. Loretta. enough said. (for those who don't know she was the Bethel assigned wedding host and did a TERRIBLE job at the rehearsal. I wanted things to flow a certain way and she was not about that. oye.)
Now to gush about what I LOVED:
1. My photographers. They were more than I expected to get. I will never forget sitting at Rachels house looking through the pics to pick the ones to go in our coffee table book and being amazed that those were MY wedding pictures. Her and Bethany made it veryyyy easy and fun to be in front of the camera. Especially for someone who doesn't enjoy being in pictures.
2. The Marriott. They were super! They were willing to help me get everything I wanted. I never thought I would ever be able to afford chair covers but they let me use that cost to meet the minimum $ amount for a Sat reception even though it was supposed to be used on food. They were attentive and quick and our steak and scallops were delicious.
3. My aisle runner. I am quite impressed I was able to make something that looked purchased (until you got up reallllll close to it.lol)
4. The groom :)
5. Everything else! lol I can't go ahead and list everything I loved but the whole day was like a dream except I remember it all! It went so smoothly (with the exception of the crazy BANG noise during the ceremony).
Friday, December 12, 2008
Merry Christmas: Part Deux
So yes this is an update. Sorry for those of you who are sick of hearing about the dreaded root canal. I figure if this is like i journal then it gets the wonderful task of life documentation. So here we go...
For those of you who have never had one, don't get one. Its not that it was painful though, it was the 1 entire hour of wondering if you are going to feel any pain. They numbed me first (yes! bring on the novacaine) one shot on the outer gum and another shot on the roof of my mouth area close to the tooth. The gum one hurt far more cause they stick ya and then slowly push it in deeper. Then they let you sit for a few short mins to get all numby. And then the drilling begain. This Dr was nice cause he would tell me when I'd feel slight pressure or vibrations and such. The part i didn't like, not cause it hurt, was when they take these mini drill/file thingys and start shaving away at the inner hole he created down the center of my tooth. no joke he like sticks these little things in the whole and starts shaving it with this jabbing motion. At this point I was doing the "dear God don't let me feel any pain" over and over and over. This goes on for about 20-30 mins with different size files to get deeper into the tooth and then he drills a bit more and then its over. Then the dr explained to me that because of my large abcess, when they initially broke through the tooth there was a flood of puss. Because of all the puss they don't want to close the tooth (ie finish the procedure) because the abcess needs to drain. lovely. so i have a tiny hole (you can see it) and they gave me a syringe to flush it out with. I go back the 19th to finish it, so I will be all wonderful for the holidays!
Neat right? Did i mention they are raping me with the cost? Mmmhmm.
For those of you who have never had one, don't get one. Its not that it was painful though, it was the 1 entire hour of wondering if you are going to feel any pain. They numbed me first (yes! bring on the novacaine) one shot on the outer gum and another shot on the roof of my mouth area close to the tooth. The gum one hurt far more cause they stick ya and then slowly push it in deeper. Then they let you sit for a few short mins to get all numby. And then the drilling begain. This Dr was nice cause he would tell me when I'd feel slight pressure or vibrations and such. The part i didn't like, not cause it hurt, was when they take these mini drill/file thingys and start shaving away at the inner hole he created down the center of my tooth. no joke he like sticks these little things in the whole and starts shaving it with this jabbing motion. At this point I was doing the "dear God don't let me feel any pain" over and over and over. This goes on for about 20-30 mins with different size files to get deeper into the tooth and then he drills a bit more and then its over. Then the dr explained to me that because of my large abcess, when they initially broke through the tooth there was a flood of puss. Because of all the puss they don't want to close the tooth (ie finish the procedure) because the abcess needs to drain. lovely. so i have a tiny hole (you can see it) and they gave me a syringe to flush it out with. I go back the 19th to finish it, so I will be all wonderful for the holidays!
Neat right? Did i mention they are raping me with the cost? Mmmhmm.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Merry Christmas
Confession: I am getting a root canal. Is that even allowed at our age? I know I know, im not 12 and its bound to happen as I get older but seriously... SERIOUSLY! I shoulda just told the dentist to pull it out. I don't need a cute looking tooth. I can do without. So yeah this must totally just be "my" year. Surgery in March, root canal in december. wonderful. but just for giggles ill tell you whyyy i went in to the dentist. I have an abcess. YUM. think of a giant swollen mass ooozing with warm yellow pus! mmmm (its not oozing at all but it sounds nasty doesn't it!?!) It is on my upper right side of my gum. Its HUGE! In touching it it spans almost 3 teeth. and when I push on it there is this mixture of relief and discomfort. Thankfully it has not gotten to the OH CRAP stage where it hurts and you have to go to medical emergency and half your face swells (yeah that happened to Dad...I clearly got his teeth). But I could tell something was wrong when I would sniff and it felt like there was a chunk of something stuffed between my gum and cheek/upper lip. I let it go for mmm 4wks maybe more but today I just couldn't take it. An odd way to describe it is that it feels tight like there is something in the middle of my tooth that is pushing on tthe sides of the tooth. So i stopped into the dentist. (this is the 3rd time I have been there for this same tooth! you'd think with all the darn X-rays they took they could tell the tooth was freaking rotting! come on!) They are putting me on antibiotics for the swelling and decaying. Overall Im estimating a heafty bill of $900-$1000. Be jealous! Cause don't you think I am special?! lol Actually i really just crave your pity and a new set of teeth. Im totally swearing off soda!! Im done with the stuff. its the only thing I drink and its GOT to be the reason I have such terrible teeth problems. OYE!!
Friday, December 5, 2008
I guess Im just odd like that!
Confession: Im totally crushing on "More than a feeling" by Boston. Is that possible to crush on a song? Well I am! and as geeky as it sounds i realized i loved this song by hearing it on rock band! yeah I know. go ahead and throw out the loser cough on me. But seriously I think I could listen to it like 20 times in a row (im currently finishing number 3 and starting 4). I don't know what it is about the song...its not really the words cause they are kinda gay, but i think its the vocals and guitar, yes..sweet lord its the guitar! Its one of those songs that you think of when you imagine the ultimate concert. A song like this would be playing, everyone would be rocking out to it and for those 4 mins you are in a completely different place. Confession: i do that alot. and by "that" i mean hear a song i love and imagine the perfect setting for it to be played in. Kind of like my version of a music video! Here are some of my favorites:
**Dj Sammy's version of Heaven is my ultimate club song. Its "scene" would be a very trendy underground club where some lucky girl gets to dance with THE HOTTEST guy she has ever danced with :) but this in't just any club, i mean it is like the beautiful people club and UBER NYC. It is what every 18 year thinks a club is supposed to be like (and not dark, dirty, sticky and smoke-filled like they really are...lol)
**Don't stop Believing by Journey: this would be my bar song. Where you would be totally performing in a bar in like some dive bar band, complete with pink streaked hair and fishnets with cool holes in them. And the lead would not just sing the song, she would be PERFORMING it. And people would be raising glasses and drunk singing. yes thats exactly the setting :)
**American Girl by Tom Petty: This song plays out in my head exactly like the words. It starts with an american girl blonde running away in a convertable car with the top down along an ocean drive and goes through what she does in the lyrics of the song. Although I kinda think on the morbid side with this song, so its like an almost-suicidal-last-minute-decided-not-to kinda thing.
**Sarah Mcglauclin (sp?) The one that goes: "IIIIII feel so alive, this is all I wanna feel tonite..." Well lauren, em and I always laughed and said we would do a video for this one, so it plays out like that. Some girl would be arguing with her man on the phone, crying, begging him not to go and then slam the phone down and whip her head around to stare out the window onto the beach (at night) under a clear star filled sky while tears poured down her face(good one isnt it!)lol
This is really only effective if I haven't seen the video, which is why these are primarily older songs! Once i have seen a video thats what usually plays in my head (hence the reason why MJ isn't on this little list) But that is totally what goes on in my mind when Im listening to my ipod. I can't be crazy, there has gottaaaa be other people out there who do the same. right? If not, then i guess that just makes me way cool for being that creative and original 'eh?!
Happy Friday! and have a great weekend!
**Dj Sammy's version of Heaven is my ultimate club song. Its "scene" would be a very trendy underground club where some lucky girl gets to dance with THE HOTTEST guy she has ever danced with :) but this in't just any club, i mean it is like the beautiful people club and UBER NYC. It is what every 18 year thinks a club is supposed to be like (and not dark, dirty, sticky and smoke-filled like they really are...lol)
**Don't stop Believing by Journey: this would be my bar song. Where you would be totally performing in a bar in like some dive bar band, complete with pink streaked hair and fishnets with cool holes in them. And the lead would not just sing the song, she would be PERFORMING it. And people would be raising glasses and drunk singing. yes thats exactly the setting :)
**American Girl by Tom Petty: This song plays out in my head exactly like the words. It starts with an american girl blonde running away in a convertable car with the top down along an ocean drive and goes through what she does in the lyrics of the song. Although I kinda think on the morbid side with this song, so its like an almost-suicidal-last-minute-decided-not-to kinda thing.
**Sarah Mcglauclin (sp?) The one that goes: "IIIIII feel so alive, this is all I wanna feel tonite..." Well lauren, em and I always laughed and said we would do a video for this one, so it plays out like that. Some girl would be arguing with her man on the phone, crying, begging him not to go and then slam the phone down and whip her head around to stare out the window onto the beach (at night) under a clear star filled sky while tears poured down her face(good one isnt it!)lol
This is really only effective if I haven't seen the video, which is why these are primarily older songs! Once i have seen a video thats what usually plays in my head (hence the reason why MJ isn't on this little list) But that is totally what goes on in my mind when Im listening to my ipod. I can't be crazy, there has gottaaaa be other people out there who do the same. right? If not, then i guess that just makes me way cool for being that creative and original 'eh?!
Happy Friday! and have a great weekend!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Flashback to my life...
20 years ago I... (1988)
1. would have been starting kindergarten, and just gotten my beloved stuffed kitty named Tinker.
2. Been awaiting Susans birth in the coming months
3. playing barbies with my best friend Kayce
10 years ago I... (1998)
1. would have been wearing jumpers, scrunchies and stockings like it was cool (cause we all know it really wasn't!)
2. woulda been rocking out to Michael W. Smith, Carmen, Point of Grace and other old school christian favorites.
3. not even THINKING about boys or getting my license... I was probably up in my room with Tinker reading a book! :) or playing Barbies with Susan...lol
3 years ago I... (2005)
1. had graduated Roberts Wesleyan (thank God!) and beginning RIT's MBA degree
2. was starting to spend time with what turned out to be my amazing husband (who woulda thought internet romances work?! lol)
3. partied like I was still in college! I definitely couldn't hang with myself from back then now. She could totally drink me under the table!
1 year ago I...(2007)
1. got engaged to Alfie and got a perfectly beautiful diamond ring to prove it! :)
2. accepted my first real job as a financial analyst at Kodak...i guess that makes me an adult now!
3. began thinking about joining weightwatchers to lose weight for the wedding the following year (i did join and ended up losing 16lbs!)
This year I... (2008)
1. purchased a beauuuutiful 2006 Nissan Altima and found out what it is like to drive a nice car!
2. had surgery to remove a very large (12cm) dermoid tumor/cyst on my ovary...pretty much had a c-section but without the benefit of having a snuggly little baby to keep!
3. GOT MARRIED to othe most wonderful man alive! It was a dream wedding and the day went by perfectly!
This month I.... (December)
1. Got to go see the Nutcracker!! My first time ever after wanting to go since I was in fourth grade!
2. will finallllllly join alfie in going to his church's christmas eve service! (this has been 3 years late...wooops)
3. celebrate christmas!!! yay!
Yesterday I...(Dec. 1st)
1. worked during the day...oooo exciting
2. had Zumba class....I LOVE that class! it is the most fun excercising I have ever done. I highly recommend it!
3. was naughty and had mcdonalds for dinner...shame on me!
Today I...(Dec. 2nd)
1. had a doctors apt. to get a better B.C. perscription (now I get to pay $10 a month instead of the $50 raping I was paying before!)
2. am going grocery shopping! I kind of enjoy it, makes me feel very domestic. especially since i don't cook very often!
3. attempted to finish up christmas shopping for my family members. Or atleast narrow down the possible ideas for what to get everyone!
Tomorrow I will... (Dec. 3rd)
1. watch private practice!!! i love that show!
2. be happy that there is no more cardio kickboxing classes left! That teacher was re-dic-u-lous!
3. finish purchasing the gifts for our moms!
In the next year I will... (2009)
1. purchase a bedroom set. Its the last major furniture purchase we need and our bedroom definitely lacks that finished look the rest of the house has!
2. save up for a nice weekend trip for alfie and I. Nothing fancy, just someplace out of rochester that would be fun for us to go to!
3. pray for a roushey niece or nephew :) lol jk lets see how closely christy reads this!
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