Serious blog post...boooooo

Confession: this is me.

By reading my blog you are peeking into my thoughts and what makes me tick. Ok lets back up, and whoa we are going to get serious here for a minute (yeah i know boo and blah, but to understand my blogs your gonna have to suffer through it so deal!). I have been blogging ince 2008, when i got married and the blog was lovingly named "confesions of a newlywed" and duh, i posted about life as a new wife and adjusting. This blog went through the fun of the newly married months and then quickly into the unemployment months and the frusteration that went with it. It has seen my happy times and my not so happy times (1st and second trimester...man was i honest). And through it all i attempt to be honest and attempt to toss in a good amount of humor, cause yeah thats me. I try to stay true to me and write a fun blog, a blog i would read (because i REALLY enjoy fun blogs), and a blog that is relatable. Come on, wouldnt you wanna read about someone laughing so hard they peed?? Not that I did that! (ok, maybe once, but i was pregnant! Ok, make that twice, and both times were pregnant, so it wasnt my fault, it was technically Coltons) So thats what I aim to do. To be me, to write my thoughts, even if no one in the world reads it (but i secretly hope people do), it is more for me than anyone. So take my thoughts and opinions worth a grain of salt. And if i offend, sorry but like i said thats me, love me or hate me (try super hard to love me though)and if you are EXTRA special and do something TOTALLY worthy (like suggest a blog idea, or make a comment) i will be sure to give you a shout out (yeah i know, what is better than a shout out from Kimi?!? NOTHING!)but most of all just enjoy it :) If you read it and like it, comment (it makes me feel fuzzy when people comment), if you disagree and hate it, dont comment...lol jk, go ahead and comment too (so everyone else can hate you...lol again jk) I am making it a point to blog a lot more often and i encourage my other friend bloggers (you know who you are) to do the same!!

Ok seriousness OVER... phew, back to the fun stuff like the fact that i have a packet of Big League Chew sitting here and i am trying my hardest to resist my bubble gum obsession and eat right through it! Sorry Alf, cause that pack is definitely not mine.... and yes, its gone!

Its MY wedding, now leave me alone!

Hindsight Confession: If its not your wedding, park your opinions at the door.

(I am writing this for all the brides past, present and future...)

If its not your wedding, be cautious about your opinions. Now wait, that doesnt mean hold them in (ok, sometimes please do), and it doesnt mean lie to us (ok sometimes it does) it just means use discretion!! Its not your wedding, if you have been married, its not your chance to relive it, or to do it over, go renew your vows, thats what those are for. If you havent been married it is NOT about what YOU want. Its the brides day and she has the final say. Feel free to give your opinion, when asked, but Brides are interesting creatures. They are hormonal the closer to the day it gets, they are emotional and sometimes irrational, they want your opinion but then they don't, so tread cautiously... but make sure you get this right... IT IS THEIR DAY, THEY GET WHAT THEY WANT. But "Aunt Mildred should be invited" Bride reserves the right to cut her off the guest list (come on she is 90, in a wheel chair and does not remember you to save her life!). "the dress makes us girls look fat" Bride gets to put you in whatever she wants and you will wear it and LOVE IT. Bride wants you to do a solo spotlight performance of Michael Jackson complete with costume, wig and choreography, then by golly you moonwalk your little heart out! It bugs me when other people (mothers, bridal party, random friends, family) give their opinion too loudly. Nice, lets make the bride feel bad about her wedding decision. Yes we know balloon animals as favors are lame but its her wedding if thats her dream, then let the girl have the dumb balloon animals! Now there is a fine line to this. Obviously the "opinion giver" loves the bride and groom, and wants to give their opinion to save them from wasting money, lots of work, bad memories, or a crappy not fun wedding. And thats all kind and wonderful, but many a time, it comes at the expense of the brides sanity and feelings and in a "I woulda felt awful if I hadn't said anything" mentality. Hmm lots of I's in that statement (remember its not your day). Here us a very common example: All brides know that a friday wedding can be an inconvience to people, but when the wedding is cheaper by doing it this way and you aren't jumping in to pay for a Saturday wedding, then guess what... thats right, Keep. your. mouth. shut! Better yet, when they have already purchased invitations, their dress, flowers, decorations, programs etc there is NOOO opinion giving other than "so cute" or "i love it". Why make the brides suffer through second guessing themselves and, why make yourself the brunt of their loathing for the duration of the engagement? You will do nothing other than piss them off!! Oh and if the bride assigns you a task, it is in your best interest to not have her have to ask you to do the same task twice. Its just bad bad bad if she does! For the duration, the bridal party and family are her slaves. You are there to ease her stress and lighten the mood and reassure her that it will all come out perfectly. Your duty is not done until the last guest leaves the reception... until then, buckle up cause its a bumpy ride!!

What about the groom?? He is a very important accessory that needs to pick the tux, plan the honeymoon and try not to piss off the bride til the day of the wedding (HA good luck with that fellas!!)

Happy Wedding Planning :)

Disclaimer: I wouldnt say I was a Bridezilla (my wedding party can chime in) but I did control A LOT (okay, ALL) of my wedding day elements and I am VERY happy with how the day turned out so poo on you who disagree with this because my method worked! :)

Thanks, but I'll pass....

Confession: I am not a camper.

I don't know why, but i just can not camp, aka "rough it". I can't! Its just not fun for me. Packing everything to bring only to have to unpack and set up once there only to have to tear down and repack only to have to unpack and put away once home. It seems like a lot of work for very little return. And then there is "nature". Yeah, nope. I don't need to be surrounded by trees and leaves and wildlife, to be cold when it rains and be sticky and uncomfortable when its hot. Its not fun for me to live in fear of having a snake encounter the entire trip.(i am mildly fear obsessed with those devil creatures) I am not really a hoodie and jeans kind of gal. I love to dress up and do my hair and makeup and camping, doesnt really lend much to that, it thrives for the casual, the laidback, the nature-lovers, the hikers, the lets-nibble-on-bark-while-hiking-up-the-mountain-and-then-pee-in-the-bushes kind of people. I am pretty much the opposite. I could care less about nature, loathe hiking, and am more of a go-er than a laidback-er (not a word...lol). I like to be near things and do things. I wanna be able to go to the beach in the morning and then walk along a boardwalk at night. I love the nightlife and the beach and the relaxation they provide. To me a nice pool, sun, tanning, and a good book are my nirvana, add a nice bed and hot shower into the mix and that is perfection. In campings defense, I will try to not 100% rush judge. A ton of people LOVE doing it, so it can't be all bad, right? So in the spirit of adventure, I would be willing to give it another try. I will say it was 100xs better when we stayed in a house, than a camper (snakes can't get in campers right?) and I love the cost effectiveness of camping, but I just find myself turning into Negative Nancy when it comes to thinking about camping. Anyone with me on this?!?! Have I just not had the "right" camping experience? Or am I pretty much dead on (well i know I am, but it would be nice to have other confirm it :) ) I don't get all the hoopla of campers and why people love it so much... there.is.nothing.to.do. Sure its probably a blast when its sunny (maybe) but what about when its cold? or rainy? or like 104 out?? What does one do then?? I don't know... Feel free to share your Yays or Nays on this, cause MAYBE i could be swayed (with the right argument)....

Its my blog, I'll complain if I want to....

Confession: Im in a funk today...

Boo, i know. I tried 3 times between today and yesterday to write a successful blog but no such luck. So todays will be lame...sorry. Maybe its the rain, or the lack of sunshine, or the fact that i havent had a chance to blow dry my hair...(probably the blow dry, it makes me cranky)! Whatever it is is pretty bumming. The fat free icing to the low fat cake is the fact that i am dieting and STARVING! I want real chicken wings. I want a real burger. I want lasagna and cheese, pizza, bread sticks, loaded fries and potato skins! But i have 2 i repeat 2 weddings this summer and am dead set on dropping enough weight to look like a skeleton walking down the aisle. And yes, in my mind a skeleton is dead sexy... (haha good one) Okay, new topic...

We are steps away from finishing the kitchen table!! Its looks soooo linda...as in que linda! Its the same white as the trim and doors in the kitchen and the seat covers have this adorable floral print pattern that highlights the gray in the walls. I can't wait to be finished with it, so we can start tiling the backsplash or painting the cabinets! :) The kitchen is going to look so pretty....feel free to be jealous...i wont hate you. After the kitchen its the half bath or maybe the fireplace room...decisions decisions!

So I am getting the "not enough time" blues. Working Mommas chime in.... how do you do it? I will gladly take suggestions, advice anything! How do you put in a 40+hour week and then go home and be the house wife, momma AND maintain your sanity? Obviously people do it, but HOW?!? I just feel like I can never get the things done that NEED to be done, like dishes, or cleaning or laundry or workout or shower.... not to mention the room full of unpacked items that have sat there since the move. man if only i had put in how may times i just sat here and sighed.... its the rain, im blaming this post on the rain.... :/

Leggings Schmeggings....

Confession: IMHO (thats In my honest opinion) leggings aren't pants....

I know, some of you thinking i am crazy and some are nodding along and thinking "thats right girl, preach it". The former can stop reading and the latter can keep going :)

In my defense, i love leggings! I think they are adorable and make for a cute outfit....when.wore.right. lol People, people people... leggings are just glorified stockings!! They are thick, skin tight STOCKINGS!! Just because they are not sheer does not mean we can not see camel toe when your shirt isnt long enough! Nor does it mean that they get to be worn as an alternative to pants. They should be wore as STOCKING alternatives! Would we not cringe if someone wore a cute top and followed it up with spandex bottoms??same thing folks. Here is a good legging vs pants check: ask yourself "if i don't wear anything other than this top, can people see my 'gina??" if the answer is yes, then sorry, you should be wearing real pants. If the answer is no, then go ahead and throw on the leggings and wear 'em proud!! Now lets move to the ever popular "jeggings" (not to be confused with skinny jeans) jean colored tights... again, cute, as long as your camel toe is not flashing loud and proud!! COVER IT ladies!! if you MUST wear a shorter shirt ATLEAST make it cover your butt and lady parts! Same thing goes for jeggings, if you wouldnot wear sheer pantyhose with that top, then nope, jeggings (in my opinion) are not ok. I know a lot of people have jumped on the bandwagon and i have no problem blaming Hollywood and their "anything goes, for anyone" mentality when it comes to dressing. But this one has gotten a bit out of control. Im tired of going to the mall and seeing far too many people in a regular (not extra long) tshirts and leggings or better yet hoodies with leggings and a pair of ugg boots with FULL makeup ( please as if you rolled out of bed with full makeup on...) and the sad part is not all of them are 15yrs old, majority are well above and old enough to know better! Now there are two "exceptions" ....1. excercise gear, aka "yoga pants" , are okay, same concept although generally only worn to the gym and home and occasionally to WegmansWalmart\Tops... we all know you are working out and in a hurry and not trying to look "cute" or make it a "look"... no problem there (unless you are trying to look cute and are trying to make it a look! But thats a whole different blog....) 2. children. Need i say more? Who's with me?!?!

***Sidenote: i have TOTALLY broken the leggings rule, when pregnant! Canal Days comes to mind and the Puerto Rican Parade.... I completely regret the poor choice of a tank top with leggings (actually yoga pants) and a long sleeveless not-sure-what-you-call-it... maybe "back and side fat coverer"?? Anyways, lesson learned on my part!

Confessions Galore!

Instead of one or two confessions, lets just fill'r up..okay???

- i have very curly hair, but actually don't really like to wear it that way. I dream of some day having very long and very straight hair.

- thanks to FB i constantly think in status updates

- Since people never know what I do... I am a cost analyst at ITT. My program builds satellites that go to space. So i maintain the budgets to do this... (thats the simple version) These are an example of what our satellites do...
http://www.abc.net.au/news/events/japan-quake-2011/beforeafter.htm

- i LOVE to wear heels. If i could, id wear them all the time, everyday.... probably because...

- I am only 5'4".... its hard to tell cause i am usually in heels, but one shoe on and one off can quickly show you how short i really am....

- I would love to get my cosmetology license. Not to make as my job job, but i think it would be fun, to do on the side....

- I Love shopping... for myself, others, home stuff, etc.

- I love the ocean, or any large body of water... (even a pool will suffice)

- Even though i know tanning is bad for you, i will probably tan for the rest of my life... not fake tanning, but the real kind!

- I have a math degree but i suck at doing mental math (alfie enjoys rubbing in that i am awful at adding tip to a bill and getting to an even dollar amount)

- I enjoy fast dancing but do not enjoy slow dancing... standing in one place swaying isnt dancing...its swaying...LAME!

- I think babies should look identical to their mommas, atleast for the first 9 months. They owe us that much :)

- I LOVE bubble gum, but especially gumballs!! LOVE IT! I chew til the flavor is gone, toss and put in another... probably why....

- I have 3+ crowns and more fillings than a 28 yr old should have in their mouth... although atleast some are gold so they look blinging!

- I am a very self conscious person, especially when it comes to my weight!

- But I love my legs and my boobs... best features (so i have been told... bow chicka wow wow) :)

- Never quite understand why people think Christy, Susan and I look SOOO much alike...nope, don't really see it.

- Am obsessed with jewelry and accessorizing

- Has a stomach of steal... am pretty much game to try any food

- Doesn't like cake unless its homemade, straight from a box, with no doctoring and the frosting is straight from the jar, not homemade...

- Loves to sing, even though i don't have the voice to do it!

- Favorite artist of all time: Michael Jackson... and NO he didn't molest any children!!

- Second favorite artist: Bon Jovi... not only is Jon Bon Jovi great, but he is smokin' for his age...

- Loves snuggling with Colton

- Deathly afraid of snakes. Pretty sure they are Satan's creatures...lol

- Does not believe in "roughing it"... not having electricity or water is NOT ok... sorry all you camping fans, give me a beach, a hot shower and ability to blow dry my hair and i am good (and a shopping plaza or two)!

- enjoys a little bit of "me" time every once in a while

- prefers beer over liquor

- LOVES LOVES LOVES cheese... any kind...seriously

Just a few tidbits about me...

Happy Friday!

Double the Confessy goodness...

Yes, thats right, you get 2 confessions today! Love it!

Confession #1: Not many people know I blog.

Weird, cause to most people the point of a blog is to put it all out there and have people read about it. True for some, but not necessarily for me. I have been blogging since I was young, but in those days it was called journaling and we used a notebook and a pen. I have a box full of my old journals and I LOVE to look back on them and chuckle at the things I said and people I wrote about. And now I have moved up to the world of blogging and my blogs now remain true to the style of journaling from back in the day. I write like I speak and I write like there is a person right here. I use parentheses’ liberally and my spelling and grammar are loosely based on the correct process. Which is fine for me because A. I don’t care and B. I don't like to stop my train of thought to figure out if what I wrote is spelled correctly or flows correctly (I like to pretend it’s not that bad). I still do the old school journaling process for important things like my letters to Colton, or my very deep and very personal feelings. Those will always remain in a notebook, handwritten.(wow just got serious there for a sec...boo)

On to the fun stuff... I try to keep my bloggies upbeat and fun, or at least a true reflection of my mood. I do get serious and I do get sad, and I do write about those times. Two in fact come to mind... my pregnancy and my unemployment. Those were very emotional and very tough and I will admit I was veryyyyy candid in my blog. Because although I may struggle to find the words verbally, I have no trouble putting my feelings on paper. (wait, wasn't I supposed to be talking about the fun stuff??) Ok, on to the fun stuff, take 2!

Confession #2: I heart free food!
So can I just gush for a second on how great it is to get free food?!?! So at work for the past 2 days our customer has been in the building and we put on a large meeting to go over the progress of the program with them. So that means that there will be catered meals (gotta step it up for the customer right?) And although myself and the other analysts (cost and schedule) do not have to attend the meeting, we do get the "leftovers". Yeah ok that doesn’t sound nearly as good as it actually is. But bear with me.... Obviously we have to let the meeting attendees eat first, but we all wait at our cubicles like lil starving puppies, waiting for the "ohh there is plenty of food, go help yourselves" from the admin. And then rush the tables like it’s our last meal! And every time it’s something delicious! Tuesday = jerk chicken, twice baked potatoes, green beans with EVOO and feta, tiramisu and assorted cakes for dessert; Wednesday = pulled pork, coleslaw, Mac n cheese, cornbread, and an ice cream bar with 20+ toppings!!!! Today I was told it is manicotti, probably with some sort of garlic bread and salad. And that’s just lunch. They also serve them breakfast and coffee/soda ALL DAY, which means we can pretty much wander over and snag drinks ALL DAY. LOVE IT! It was nice when I was pregnant (probably aided in the 50lbs gained) because they would ALWAYS say "oh go grab some food" welll before they let anyone else :) Or sometimes I would just go, whether or not they okayed it cause really, who is going to say no to a hungry pregnant lady!? (preggers get away with EVERYTHING... that just may have to be tomorrows blog topic, cause seriously it’s unreal!) Yes, I know you are thinking NOOOO PLEASE SAY YOU DIDNT EAT THAT!! WHAT ABOUT 40 in 40!?? believe me, I ate it, and thought about how I was wrecking my 40 in 40 (which meant I felt guilty all afternoon). BUT IT WAS FREEE! and in my defense, with the exception of the ice cream, I didn’t go overboard on portions and didn’t indulge in dessert. It’s a good sign though that at least I am thinking about it, right??? Yeah we shall see how I do with today’s menu...oye!